Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Ya Allah..ku merinduimu..

Sudah hampir 5 bulan wan bekerja di satyam. Namun semakin hari semakin jiwa wan merasa kekosongan. Setiap hari pergi ke pejabat, menyibukkan diri dengan menyiapkan semua tugasan yang diberi namun hati wan merasa kurang senang dengan keadaan disekeliling. Wan merasakan kehilangan sesuatu yang dahulu wan nikmati tetapi kini makin lama makin hilang. Sesuatu itu adalah suasana islamic yang wan rasakan semasa di uia dahulu. Kini wan merinduinya, amat merindui suasana Islamic yang mendamaikan jiwa.

Setiap hari mata ini melihat maksiat berlaku didepan mata. Pekerja lelaki bersentuhan sesame pekerja perempuan sesuka hati, bergaul sesame sendiri tanpa batasan malah menganggap inilah reality dunia IT yang kononnya membuka ruang kepada kebebasan bergaul.

Kadangkala wan menangis apabila melihat semakin ramai yang terpengaruh dengan budaya barat ini. Tiada lagi nilai-nilai islam yang sewajarnya dipamerkan oleh mereka yang punya sahsiah islamiah. Dari segi pemakaian juga amat menyakitkan mata. Walaupun bertudung, tetapi berpakaian ketat sehingga mampu menggoncangkan iman seorang lelaki. Lebih menyedihkan apabila melihat mereka yang dahulu menjaga pergaulan tetapi kerana tidak mahu dipulaukan, mereka lupa pada batasan syara’.

Islam tidak pernah sesekali menghalang seseorang untuk bersosial malah mengalakkan umatnya bersosial tetapi perlu beretika. Sesungguhnya Islam telah meletakkan batasan pergaulan antara lelaki dan perempuan untuk menjaga maruah masing-masing. Seringkali kita melupakan Allah demi mencari keredhaan manusia. Setiap hari telinga wan hanya mendengar hal-hal yang berkaitan dengan duniawi semata-mata sehinggakan hati ini ketandusan pengisian rohani. Mata ini tidak lagi tenang untuk melihat keadaan sekeliling. Terasa diri amat terasing disini.

“Sesungguhnya barangsiapa yang mencari redha Allah sedangkan manusia murka, maka Allah akan cukupkan baginya akan segalanya didunia ini. Tetapi barangsiapa yang mencari keredhaan manusia dalam keadaan Allah murka, maka Allah menyrahkan nasibnya pada manusia.”

Hadith ini yang wan pegang selama ini. Ya Allah ku tidak inginkan keredhaan manusia, tetapi ku dahagakan keredhaanMu ya Allah.
Ya Allah, andai ini ujian buat diriku untuk menguji ketahan imanku padamu, ku redha. Namun ku pohon kekuatan darimu agar tidak memesongkan hati ini ke jalan yang Engkau tidak redhai.

Kadangkala wan tertanya pada diri…apakah tujuan Allah meletakkan diri ini di tempat yang begitu mencabar imanku? Wan tahu wan perlu berdakwah..mungkin ini caranya Allah ingin suruh wan menjalankan dakwah di tengah kelompok manusia yang sedang memburu keseronokan duniawi. Hanya pertolongan darimu yang mampu mempertahankan diri ini agar tidak terpengaruh dengan budaya yang melemahkan iman.

“Ya Allah letakkanlah dunia digenggamanku, janganlah letakkan ia di hatiku” – Wan-

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

When Allah tests you..

One day evening I went to the ATM to withdraw some money but unfortunately it was offline. So I headed straightly to MEPS ATM to withdraw the money. As usual I inserted my bank card and entered the exact amount to withdraw. I waited for a few minutes and all of a sudden the screen showed a mesage informing me that the system could not proceed with the transaction. I was upset and went to the back of the queue hoping for another try. Surprisingly when I checked my account balance, the amount of money which I wanted to withdraw a few minutes ago was already deducted. I was shock and confuse. To my thought, the machine wrongly displayed the balance.

Upon arriving at home, I straightly checked through online all the transactions which had been done for the day. To my surprise, it recorded the transactions which I had done that evening. It was true that my balance had been deducted. At first I felt so sad because the amount which I wanted to withdraw was a lot but not even a single note was received. Without noticing, the money was gone.

I washed myself and prayed to Allah. "Ya Allah ku redha andai ini ujian buat diriku..ku akui segala dosaku..ampunkanlah daku Ya Allah..tunjukkanlah daku andai ada kesalahan yang ku lakukan tanpa kusedari..hanya kepadaMu ku berserah.."

In my prayers my heart was telling me.."Did I miss out anyone who had ask for sedekah while I was walking along the road..somewhere..at anytime..did I not give any money to that person??" I couldn't remember..but I really ask for forgiveness to you oh Allah if this is the cause of the lost of my money.

Oh Allah, walaupun dirimu menguji diriku, ku redha dan ku bersyukur kerana Engkau mengambilnya dalam keadaan diriku tidak diapa2kan..Engkau masih memberi peluang untuk diriku..terima kasih ya Allah..ku bersyukur padaMu..

Wanita..antara berlian dan kaca..??

"Sesungguhnya seindah hiasan dunia adalah wanita"

Mengapakah Allah mengangkat tinggi darjat seorang wanita? Bukan kerana lain tetapi kerana wanita punyai maruah diri yang begitu tinggi nilainya sehingga wanita diibaratkan seperti mutiara di dasar lautan yang hanya mampu dilihat oleh mereka yang terpilih sahaja.

Namun pentas dunia menyaksikan wanita hari ini sudah hilang perasaan malunya sehingga sanggup membiarkan diri disentuh oleh mana-mana lelaki yang merajakan nafsunya. Begitu juga dengan golongan remaja yang hanyut dek mabuk 'cinta' merelakan lelaki yang kononnya 'kekasih hati' menyentuh tangannya dan membawanya kemana saja tanpa ada batasan waktu biarpun sehingga mencecah larut malam.

Inikah nilai seorang wanita di zaman ini?? Keluar berdua-duaan sehingga ke larut malam dan bangga mengakui bahawa lelaki itu adalah kekasih hati yang ingin dijadikan suami..Sedih sekali wanita zaman ini sudah tidak mampu membezakan antara lelaki yang baik dan bertanggungjawab. Jika benar lelaki itu bertanggungjawab, mereka tidak akan sanggup membawa anak gadis keluar sehingga ke tengah malam semata-mata 'kononnya' ingin mengisi kesepian hati. Malang sekali mereka tidak sedar bahwa perbuatan itu adalah tidak bertanggungjawab. Akan tetapi banyak wanita yang tertipu dan kabur mata hati hingga menyakinkan diri bahawa inilah lelaki yang pandai menjaganya dan mampu memberi kebahagiaan padanya..

Sedangkan Islam menjelaskan bahawa lelaki yang baik dan bertanggungjawab adalah mereka yang menjaga perempuan yang dikasihinya sehingga tidak membenarkan diri dan juga sesiapa pun menyentuhnya ataupun membawanya keluar ke mana saja. Mereka inilah yang menjaga amanah Allah dengan baik sehinggalah membawa kepada penyatuan dua jiwa yang menghalalkan hubungan mereka yang direstui oleh ILLAHI.

Marilah kita sama-sama renungkan..andainya kita selalu keluar bersama lelaki mana-mana ke mana sahaja..tanyalah pada diri sendiri..adakah kita pasti lelaki itu yang akan menjadi lelaki yang sah bg diri?? Andainya TIDAK..ke mana hilangnya harga diri?? Tiada yang istimewa lagi untuk dihadiahkan kepada suami kita andai diri kita sudah bibawa keluar oleh beberapa lelaki yang lain..diri kita bukan lagi wanita yang mahal harganya..tetapi yang tiada nilai sehingga boleh diambil oleh sesiapa pun..renungkanlah bersama..

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

CINTA...dimanakah kesudahannya..Syurga..atau Neraka..?

CINTA..apa itu cinta??
Menjadi fitrah manusia untuk bercinta dan dicintai...namun apakah 'cinta' yang diburu itu 'cinta' yang dituntut oleh Islam? Apakah cinta yang bergelora dalam jiwa itu benar-benar cinta yang suci?? Anehnya kebanyakan orang mengatakan cinta itu buta
Hakikatnya cinta itu tidak pernah buta..malah cinta itu fitrahnya suci..dan mampu menerangi hati-hati insan.

Tetapi sayang sekali kebanyakan pemuda membutakan hati demi 'cinta' yang kononnya dianggap suci tetapi hakikatnya menempah tiket ke neraka Allah. Kerana 'cinta' itu, kebanyakan orang sanggup menutup pintu hati lalu membenarkan nafsu menguasai diri sehingga membiarkan anggota tubuh berbuat segala macam maksiat bermula dari mata sehinggalah ke kaki..dari sekecil2 dosa sehinggalah sebesar-besar dosa...

Sedangkan ulama' mengatakan "Cinta yang sejati itu adalah cinta yang mampu menjadikan seseorang itu lebih hampir kepada ILLAHI.."

Marilah kita sama-sama renung sejenak...banyak orang mengatakan mereka ingin berkahwin tetapi masih tidak mampu kerana banyak masalah seperti kewangan dsb..Tetapi sedarkah mereka mengapa banyak masalah yang timbul hingga menyebabkan mereka tidak dapat bernikah??? Kita sedar bahawa segalanya milik Allah, akan tetapi kita seringkali melakukan perkara-perkara yang dimurkai Allah..Malam siang kita berdoa padaNYA minta segala hasrat dihati tercapai..namun sedarkah kita mengapa perlu Allah makbulkan doa kita andainya kita selalu melakukan dosa terhadap Allah..

Setiap hari keluar 'berdating' berpegang tangan, berpelukan, bebas melakukan segala aktiviti seolah-olah dunia milik kita..hati kecil yang berbisik melarang kita melakukannya terus tidak diendahkannya semata-mata ingin memenuhi hajat kekasih hati..sehingga kita lupa ada yang sedang MURKA..dan dimalam hari kepadaNYA jua kita pohon segalanya...sungguh hina diri kita andai dihadapan boss kita melakukan sesuatu yang tidak disukainya..apatah lagi dihadapan BOSS yang MAHA AGUNG..!

Janganlah dikejar 'CINTA' yang mampu menempah tiket ke neraka semata-mata kerana kabur dengan keindahan 'cinta' yang PALSU..Tetapi korbankanlh 'CINTA' yang PALSU itu demi 'CINTA' yang mampu membawa diri menjadi lebih hampir pada ILLAHI...kerana kelak itulh jua kesudahan yang kita nantikan...kabahagiaan didunia yang mampu memberi kebahagiaan di akhirat..amin..

"Ya Allah pimpinlah hati kami menuju jalan yang Engkau redhai..jadikanlah cintaku cinta yang dirahmati dan diberkati..Amin.." -Wan-

Monday, October 15, 2007

Muhasabah Ramadhan

Syawal kini menjelang tiba..seluruh umat Islam meraikan syawal dengan gembira bersama keluarga dan rakan taulan. Walaupun ada yang berjauhan dengan keluarga, namun kegembiraan syawal turut menyinari hati masing-masing.
Namun disebalik kegembiraan yang sedang kita kecapi, marilah kita muhasabah diri akan pengisian ramadhan selama sebulan yang lalu..

Bagaimanakah kita menyambut ramadhan pada tahun ini? Dimanakah terletaknya darjat puasa kita? Adakah kita sekadar berpuasa dengan menahan lapar dahaga? Sedangkan puasa yang dituntut Allah adalah puasa yang mampu meningkatkan rohani dan menahan nafsu. Tetapi berapa banyak antara kita yang yang telah menahan nafsu dari melakukan dosa padaNya..

Berapa banyak pula yang terus bergelumang dengan dosa dibulan yang mulia itu? Sedangkan Allah telah menggarikan syaitan dan iblis..lalu mengapakah kita menjadikan nafsu sebagai raja dalam hati???
Siapakah kita untuk melawan perintah Allah?? Sedangkan tubuh kita adalah milik Allah...dan kita tidak punya hak atas apa-apa pun..Ingatlah diri kita amat hina..hanya taqwa yang mengangkat martabat diri menjadi mulia disisi Allah..

Marilah renungkan bersama hikmah ramadhan yang Allah kurniakan pada kita..
Orang-orang yang beriman menyambut kedatangan ramdhan dengan hati yang penuh syukur dan gembira kerana inilah peluang yang diberi Allah dimana terdapat beribu-ribu kebaikan dan segala ganjaran dilipat gandakan. Bagi mereka yang sentiasa ingat akan mati, pasti tidak akan melepaskn peluang ini untuk berlumba-lumba menambahkan segala macam amalan demi menggapai redha Illahi..kerana mereka bimbang jika ajal datang menjemput, ketika itu adakah cukup amalan yang akan dibawa untuk melayakkan mereka mendapat rahmat Illahi untuk menjadi penghuni syurga??

Namun bagi golongan yang alpa..mereka pula terus melupakan mati..mereka hanyut dalam arus dunia yang pada pandangan mata segalanya indah bagaikan syurga yang hakikatnya hanyalah fana yang tersingkap mehnah Illahi bagi orang-orang yang beriman.

Berapa banyak sedekah yang sudah dihulurkan?
Berapa banyak malam yang dimeriahkan dengan zikir dan tahajud?
Berapa banyak 'improvement' dalam akhlak yang berjaya dicapai?
Berjayakah menahan lidah dan lisan daripada berkata dusta dan memburuk-burukkan orang lain?
Berjayakah khatam al-quran di bulan Ramadhan?
Berjayakah kita menjadi tetamu Allah pada malam Lailatul-Qadarnya?

Semakin kita 'memuhasabah' diri, semakin kita menangisi Ramadhan yang berlalu pergi, dan benar-benar berharap dan menanti Ramadhan akan kembali lagi. Dan kita berazam biarlah Ramadhan yang akan datang itu lebih baik dari yang sebelumnya. Tapi semakin kita mengharap, semakin kita gerun dan takut, andai Ramadhan ini yang terakhir yang kita lalui, maka di mana lagi ruang untuk memperbaiki diri khusus di bulan Ramadhan penuh barakah dengan limpah RahmatNya ini??

"Sudahkah terbangun jiwa teguh dan kukuh...Atau kolam jiwa masih tercemar keruh..bersembilu dosa duri angkara..." -Wan-

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Akad nikah



Just want to share with all of u..suasana akad nikah..gementar jgk abang wan masa tu..2 hari dia berlatih nk bagi lancar lafaz nikah..nasib baik dpt buat dlm sekali lafaz je..hehe =)

Opps..I took the wrong bag..

It was 2 years back..I came back from Qatar. Supposedly I should of arrived at 11am but because of flight delay, I arrived at KLIA 1 hour late. Upon arriving, I straightly headed towards luggage pickup area. There I had to wait another half an hour before I could pickup my luggage and I straight away went out through the gate and looked for my brother.

At home, I unpacked all my stuffs. To my surprised when I tried to open the last bag, it could not open. I looked carefully at the bag. There was a business class tag. Only then I realized that I had took the wrong bag. It was another person's bag right in front of me...someone from the Business Class. How could I not noticed?? The bag looked exactly like mine. It had a broken wheel on the left side same like mine. Anyone could of accidentally exchange his or her bag since both were really similar. I became panic..there in my bag which I had left at the airport contained a cheque worth RM3000 which I had to hand over to a person. My father's friend aked me to do the favour to give the cheque to his sister in Malaysia. I was terrified. What should I do if the cheque has been stolen? How could I pay back that amount of money? Only God knew how worried I was at that time..

Without wasting any time, I drove straight away back to KLIA. I rushed to see the person in charge of the luggage and told him what had happened.
"Excuse me Sir, I accidentally took back the wrong bag and left behind mine." "Oh..so this is the bag the man was looking for. He just left a few minutes ago. But its ok. Just leave it here and I'll call him to come and pick up his bag." "Erm..sir how can I look for my bag?" "Well let's try to see whether you're lucky enough to have your bag left behind without nobody taking it." I followed him to the room which kept leftover luggages and searched for my bag. Fortunately my bag was there. I was relieved. Thank goodness oh Allah for helping me.

I head back home and check to see whether the cheque was still there or not. Luckily it was still there. I smiled and I sat back wondering what was contained in that person's bag?? What if there was also a large amount of money left in his bag?? =)

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Muhasabah Diri - Amat Berguna Untuk Diamati...


'DEMI MASA' manusia selalu terlupa



1hari=24jam

Satu TAHUN ?

12 Bulan

52 Minggu

365 Hari

8760 Jam

525600 Minit


31536000 Detik




Distribusi normal manusia meninggal dunia (tahun)

< 60th

> 70th

60th - 70th

(65th)


Chart


Kebanyakan manusia meninggal dunia antara usia 60 thn-70thn (majoriti) Puratanya manusia meninggal 65 th

"Baligh: Start untuk seseorang di perhitungkan amal baik atau buruknya selama hidup di dunia"

Laki-laki Baligh 15 tahun

Wanita Baligh 12 tahun

Usia Yang ada untuk kita beribadah kepada-Nya, puratanya:



Mati - Baligh = Baki Usia, :~ 65 - 15 = 50 tahun



50 tahun digunakan untuk apa?



Catatan:



50 tahun=

18250 hari=

458000 jam

12 jam siang hari

12 jam malam hari

24 jam satu hari satu malam



Gambaran kasarnya:

Mari kita muhasabah bersama..... ....


Waktu kita tidur 8 jam/hari ;


Dalam 50 tahun waktu yang habis dipakai tidur 18250 hari x 8 jam= 146000 jam= 16 tahun 7 bulan; dibulatkan jadi 17 tahun

Logiknya:
Alangkah sayangnya waktu 17 tahun habis di gunakan untuk tidur, padahal
kita akan tertidur dari dunia untuk selamanya... ...




Waktu aktiviti kita di siang hari 12 jam

Dalam 50 tahun waktu yang habis dipakai untuk aktiviti:

18250 hari x 12 jam= 219000 jam = 25 tahun

Aktiviti disiang hari:

Ada yang bekerja, atau bercinta, ada yang belajar atau mengajar, ada yang sekolah atau kuliah, ada yang makan sambil jalan-jalan, dan banyak lagi.



Waktu rehat 4 jam

Dalam 50 tahun waktu yang dipakai untuk rehat 18250 hari x 4 jam= 73000 jam = 8 tahun

Rehat: menonton tv, atau mungkin dihabiskan termenung di buai khayalan.... .


17 tahun + 25 tahun + 8 tahun = 50 tahun



Lalu Bila Nak Beribadah???

Padahal Allah ada berfirman yang bermaksud; "Tidak KUciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan untuk beribadah kepadaKU".

Maut datang menjemput tak pernah bersahut,

Malaikat datang menuntut untuk merenggut,

Manusia tak kuasa untuk berkata-kata,

Allah Maha Kuasa atas syurga dan Neraka,

Terimalah habuanmu seadanya..

Memang benar!!!

Menuntut ilmu itu ibadah, kalau niatnya untuk ibadah, tetapi kebanyakannya belajar agar mudah mencari pekerjaan. Sekiranya belajar
itu tidak membantu menambah pendapatan kita, kita tidak akan belajar...


Memang benar!!! Bekerja cari nafkah itu ibadah, tapi bekerja yang bagaimana?
Ramai orang bekerja untuk hidup bermewah-mewahan dan amat kurang sedekahnya.


" Jarang ada yang menolak untuk dipuji dan dipuja tatkala berjaya "



Lalu Bila Nak Beribadah???

Oh! mungkin solat 5 waktu itu dianggap sudah mencukupi... !

Karena kita fikir; solat wajib besar pahalanya, solat amalan pertama yang dihisab, solat jalan untuk membuka pintu syurga...

Benarkah solat kita itu mencukupi dan diterima !!?



Berapa banyak solat kita dalam 50 tahun???

1 solat = 10 minit ..... 5x solat = 1 jam

Dalam waktu 50 tahun waktu yang terpakai utk solat = 18250 hari x I jam =18250 jam= 2 tahun



Kesimpulan:
waktu yang kita manfaatkan dalam 50 tahun di dunia cuma 2 tahun untuk
solat ( ini kalau yg solat 10minit! Kalau solat macam ayam patuk tanah..amacam?) 2 tahun dari 50 tahun kesempatan kita....itupun belum tentu solat kita bermakna berpahala dan di terima.


Dan sekiranya pahala solat kita selama 2 tahun tidak sebanding dengan perbuatan dosa-dosa kita selama 50 tahun;

dalam percakapan kita yang
selalu dusta, baik yang sengaja ataupun tidak, dalam pertuturan kita yang sering mengguris orangtua kita, dalam harta kekayaan kita yang selalu kedekut terhadap orang faqir, dalam setiap perbuatan kita yang selalu bergelumang dosa...




Logiknya:

Bukan satu yang mustahil kita umat akhir zaman akan berhamburan di neraka untuk mendapatkan balasan kelalaian.......

Terlalu banyak masa yang terbuang percuma selama manusia hidup di dunia dan semuanya itu akan menjadi bencana........



Penyelesaian:

Tiada kata terlambat walaupun waktu berlalu cepat, isilah ia dengan sesuatu yang bermanfaat...

Ingatlah negeri kita...Akhirat

"Barangsiapa yang menyukai bertemu dengan Allah s.w.t, maka Allah s.w.t menyukai untuk bertemu dengannya, dan barangsiap yang benci bertemu dengan Allah s.w.t maka Allah s.w.t benci bertemu dengannya" - Wan-

Monday, June 11, 2007

Anxiety of Exam


Today, early in the morning I woke up to do my last revision before the exam. At 7.30am I dressed myself to be prepared to go for the exam which I thought was at 9am. Sharp at 8.30 am I headed towards the car to get my exam slip which I had left. Unfortunately, the slip was not there. Yus had searched all over the place, opened up all of my books but still it was not there. Yus spontaneously asked me to get in the car and drove off to Econs Lab.

There in Econs Lab, the computer caused me some trouble. It took me 10 minutes to successfully print out the exam slip while the clock on my watch was already showing 5 minutes to 9.00am. I rushed to the car and Yus quickly drove me to CAC. I was relieved to see all of the students still hanging out infront of the main entrance.

Few seconds later, we were asked to enter into CAC. With full of confident, I headed straightly to my seat which was allocated at number 25. Surprisingly, there was a sister sitting there. I looked around. No familiar faces were there. I became panic. The exam was about to start. I quickly reached one brother who was in charge in the CAC and raise to him my problem. He was confused too and called another sister to solve my problem of sitting arrangement. She too was confused. She told me that this hall is only for those who are taking "Bahasa Melayu Kerjaya", not LE4600. I became more confused. They told me to go and check at Foyer to see whether LE4600 is being placed over there.

I rushed to Foyer and asked one of the examinor in charge. She looked at my slip and pointed out to me, "Sis, your exam is at 2.30pm. Look carefully at your exam slip". I was blurr. To my surprise, it was true that my exam is at 2.30pm not 9am. I laughed at myself. Boy oh boy, this was the first time I faced this kind of situation throughout my four years of study =) Because of being too eager to finish off the exam, I ended up walking back to my college exhausted but not yet finished with the exam =)

Saturday, June 9, 2007

Tafsir Al-Quran

Tafsir Surah Yunus (ayat 26)
“Bagi orang-orang yang berbuat baik, ada pahala yang terbaik (syurga) dan tambahannya (keni’matan bertemu dengan Allah). Dan muka mereka tidak ditutupi debu hitam dan tidak pula kehinaan. Mereka itulah penghuni syurga, mereka kekal di dalamnya.”
(Surah Yunus: 26)

While reading the Quran, I came across this verse. This verse somehow gave this kind of ‘feeling’ which touched my heart. The literal meaning of the verse sounds quite simple but the actual meaning of this verse is really deep. In this verse, Allah guarantees to all human kind, those who do kindness on earth, believe in Him, follow all of his commands shall enter paradise. Some questions which I’ve been asking myself for such a while,

“How many of us (muslims) truly believe in Allah?”
“How many of us truly feel the existence of Allah?”
“Why is it some muslims confess that they believe in Allah but still dare to disobey His commands??

All of these questions have been playing in my mind for such a long time since in high school. Until now, I’ve reached a conclusion to all these questions that it is true that all muslims confess their believe in Allah but not all of them truly believe in Allah. What I’m trying to convey here is that if one purely and truly believe in Allah, really feels the existence of Allah wherever he or she goes, no one will even dare to disobey Allah with any intention at all. But what today’s scenario is showing to us is that muslims only believe in Allah when they’re praying or only in certain occasions. When it comes to wordly matters, they tend to put religion aside. They forget all of Allah’s commands and follow their desires without having any awareness or fear of Allah. Worst scenario, muslims only confess themselves as muslims but do not obey any of Allah’s command.

Fellow friends….this is why our ummah nowadays is lacking behind. It is because of our faith in Allah that is so weak, from day to day it is becoming weaker and hence some easily change their beliefs from believing in Allah to disbelieve in Allah. Fellow friends, let us pray to Allah may He guard our faith, may He not close our heart from seeing the light of truth and may we become ‘istiqamah’ in all of our acts in gaining Allah’s pleasure and spreading the truth to the world.

“Rabbana atina fi aldunia wa fi alakhirah wa qina ‘azab annar” -Wan-

True Friendship


True friendship isn't seen with the eyes, it is felt with the heart.
When there is trust, understanding, loyalty, and sharing.
True friendship is a rare feeling, but when it is found
It has profound impact on our well-being, strength, and character.
True friendship does not need elaborate gifts
Or spectacular events in order to be valuable or valued.
To ensure long-lasting quality and satisfaction,
True friendship only needs a few key ingredients:
Undying loyalty, unmatched understanding, unsurpassed trust,
Deep and soulful secrets, and endless sharing.
These ingredients, mixed with personality and a sense of humor,
Can make a friendship last a lifetime!
This is just a thank you, my friend, for all the wonderful and colorful
Special ingredients You've brought to my life!

"Thank You Yus for being such a wonderful best friend" - Wan-

Friday, June 8, 2007

I'll miss you my dearest best friend


Final exam is just around the corner. Next Monday will be my last day of exam during my undergraduates studies. Even now, I'm starting to miss my dearest best friend, Yus. It was only one year I knew her but with Allah's blessing our friendship became so strong until each of us can feel the strong bond between both of us.
Since I knew her, she had always been there during the dullest moments and had shine up my life. In times when I was down and had no one to talk to, she was there for me.
She had always lend her shoulder for me to cry on. When problems fall upon me, she would always give me the courage and support I needed. She would never leave me alone to face all the problems by myself.
I truly appreciate all that you have done for me Yus. Thank you so much my dear friend. It was such a blessing to know you and have you as a best friend. Thank you again Yus. I'm so sorry if ever I offended you Yus. I'm so sorry if I was not a good best friend to you or I did not meet your expectation as a best friend which you had dreamed of. My only hope is that throughout our friendship, I managed to make you smile. I hope that you were happy to have me as your best friend. Be strong my dear, may Allah bless you forever. My prayers shall be with you where ever you are. Best friends forever. Miss you Yus :)

"A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway" -Wan-

Thursday, May 31, 2007

My Ambition...


For such a long time, I've been asking myself..what is it that i really want to be? Throughout the experiences I face in my life falling down the ladder and trying to cilmb back up..it somehow did change my ambition. Even though I'm graduating from computer science but deep inside me, I hear a slow voice wispering to my heart saying to me that what I truly want to be is a lecturer.

Why is it so? Well to be frank, my only dream is to see everyone succeed. I really want to approach those students who seem to have no more spirit in themselves. I want to give them motivation, push them back on the right path, guide them and blow the spirit into their hearts so that one day they would know how it feels like to succeed. Only then, they would have the courage and build up their level of confident again. As a result, they will never look down on themselves again forever.

Why am I saying this? Well that was what I've been facing throughout my years of studies. It took me quite a few years to achieve success. I didn't excell during my studies in school but only excell when I entered university. Even so, I had a bumpy ride to hold on to that 'success' which sometimes did slipped out of my hand.

" To all students, do your very best. Don't dwell on the past.
Its enough to do your best on what you're doing now :) " -Wan-

Friday, May 25, 2007

I'm so tired this semester


This semester I'm only taking 2 subjects, in actual only one because the other one I'm just taking it without any credit hour. Everyday i head to class at 8am and return to my room at 11am. My other class is at 8pm so I have the whole day to rest. Even so, I feel very exhuasted everyday. If i was to blame on the subjects that I'm taking, while comparing to last semester with 5 subjects and struggling to finish off my FYP, I could say that this semester is very relaxing for me. But why is it that my body feels very tired everyday?? I asked my friend, Yus and she answered that this may be due the works that i've been doing during the weekends with non-stop. When it comes to thinking of that, it somehow does solves the math. No wonder I feel so tired during the weekdays since on saturday and sunday I torture myself to do all the works starting early in the morning till midnight with no break at all. However, that's my duty at home, which I somehow enjoy :)
Sometimes I ask myself when the time comes for me to have my own family, would I be able to do all the houseworks everyday as well as entertaining my husband and children?? Wallahu'alam. Whatever happens I pray to Allah may He lend me the strength, capabilities and a good health so that I can continuously serve my family the very best I possibly could. I pray may Allah help me to be a good wife to my husband and also a good mother to my children, amin.

"My only dream is to be the best wife to my husband and the best mother to my children" - Wan-

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Thank you so much Mum

The clock on my the computer showing 15 minutes to 1am. I don't know why tonight i kind of feel hard to sleep..my eyes are wide open even though my body is up to the limit due to the works i 've been doing the whole day with non stop...but I enjoy my life like this..every weekend i go back home just to clean up my house..to maintain all the cleanliness in this house..in actual..just to please my beloved mum :) everyday I cry when i think of my mum..even though she's not that well..but she keeps on pushing herself to do all the house works..since she's a "perfectionist" type of person, she can't bare to see her house in a mess even a little mess. However, sadly to say not even one of her children are like her type..all of us are the 'simple' type of people..not so 'rajin' like our mum. Sometimes i feel like want to go back everyday just to do all the housekeeping works..so that my mum can have a rest..my only wish is to see my mum have a good rest and be healthy again. Mum..i'll always try my best to do all that I can to please u.if ever I did not please you.. i ask for your apology.. forgive me mum if i did not meet your expectations as a daughter..

"Thank you Mum for being such a good mother to us" - Wan-

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Antara Impian & Realiti..

I was driving back to UIA with hidayah beside me while listening to “Ayah” a song from Aeman’s group. Sambil mendengar dendangan lagu, fikiranku melayang-layang mengimbau kembali segala kenanagnku di UIA. Kata2 ayahku masih terngiang2 ditelingaku. “Yati, Wae nak tengok Yati dapat 1st class degree nanti” Itulah kata-kata yang diluahkan oleh ayahku pada malam anugerah kecemerlangan pelajar di matrikulasi PJ. Tiba-tiba hatiku menjadi sebak..kini aku hanya tinggal satu sem saja..tp ku xmampu untuk penuhi harapan ayahku. Bukan ku tidak cuba..ku telah berusaha sedya yang termampu..namun ku tewas dikala Allah mengujiku.....


Ku melangkah kaki ke UIA gombak dengan harapan setinggi awan. Namun ku tidak duga ujian yang maha berat dari Tuhan. Ku tanamkan azam untuk penuhi impian ayah & bonda. Namun Tuhan telah mengatur segala-galanya. Ku tewas tika di tahun 2 & hujung tahun 3.

Ku masih ingat ketika itu, hanya Allah yang tahu betapa beratnya ujian mendatang. Ku tidak sangka kenalanku dgn sahabatku menduga bermacam rintangan yang perlu ku tempuhi. Shabatku telah jatuh sakit ‘dibuat orang’. Hubungan dgn keluarganya menjadi hambar. Yang ia mahu dekati hanyalah diriku. Apakan dayaku utk menolak permintaan seorang sahabat ketika dlm kesusahan. Kerana keikhlasan dlm berukhwah, ku menyambut amanah yg diberikan Tuhan untuk menjaga sahabatku sehingga dia sembuh.

Selama 2 tahun sakitnya berlarutan & selama itu juga ku tetap setia disisinya. Namun sebagai seorang pelajar, banyak dugaan yang ku tempuhi. Waktu belajarku, rehatku, tidurku semuanya berubah. Ku tidak lagi dapat tidur nyenyak seperti orang lain. Ku tidak lagi dapat belajar sepenuhnya seperti pelajar lain. Kerana menjaga orang yang sakit spiritual bukanlah sesuatu yang mudah. Ibaratnya mempersiapkn diri berjuang dimedan perang…berkorban apa sahaja..dan bersedia menghadapi sebarang kemungkinan.

Setiap hari sblm ke kelas, pasti akanku sediakan sarapan pagi untuk sahabatku. Selesai saja kelas, walaupun ‘gap’nya hanya 1 jam sebelum kelas seterusnya, pasti ku akan berlari pulang ke bilik untuk melihat keadaan dia. Tiba waktu tengahari, ku akan sediakan makan tengahari sebelum ku ke kelas pada belah petang. Selesai kelas, ku akan berlari sekali lagi untuk melihat keadaanya. Tiba waktu malam, ku sediakan makan malam.

Malam adalah waktu paling getir kerana pada waktu beginilh dia selalu ‘dikacau’. Mangsanya tiada yang lain..kecuali aku. Baru saaj ku ingin mentelaah pelajaranku, tiba2 dia ‘dikacau’. Lagsung ku terpaksa menutup kitabku & melayan kerenahnya. Andai nasib kurang baik, ku akan ‘diserang’ olehnya. Badanku menjadi tempat untuknya melepaskn geram dek dikawal oleh jin & syaitan. Ku tidak berdaya untuk melawan setiap pukulannya, akibatnya, badanku lebam seperti didera. Namun, ku tidak pernah menyalahkannya. Malah ku amat sedih melihat keadaanya begitu. Ku tahu bukan dirinya yang bertindak tetapi suatu kuasa lain yang mengawal dirinya. Kebiasaanya, 3-4 jam pertarungan berlarutan. Apabila hampir tiba subuh, keadaanya menjadi normal. Ketika itu, barulah dia boleh tidur. Aku juga hanya boleh tidur di waktu itu.

Begitulah rutin kehidupanku selama 2 tahun menjaganya. Kadangkala bilikku banjir dengan air yang ditumpahkannya, & juga dengan makanan yang diselerakkannya. Nota-notaku juga bertebaran dilantai ketika angin ‘amuk’nya datang Sesiapa yang memandang pasti akan kelu..tidak termampu untuk berkata walau sepatah. Jika ditanya tentang emosiku, hanya Tuhan yang tahu. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul. Bagi diriku, hanya titisan airmata yang sentiasa menemaniku dimalam hari. Ku tidak berdaya untuk melawannya. Namun ku harus bersabar melayan kerenahnya kerana ku telah berjanji dengan diriku bahawa ku akan menjaganya sehingga dia sembuh.

Aku yakin dgn firman Allah dlm Al-Baqarah:286. “Tidaklah Allah menguji seseorang itu melainkn dgn apa yg termampu olehnya”. Hanya kasih saying yang tulus dari hatiku kepadanya sebagai seorang sahabat yg membuatku terus bertahan. Tapi ku tewas dalam mengejar kejayaan dalam pelajaran. Kerana terlalu letih ditambahi pula dengan kesuntukan waktu untukku study, CGPAku merosot. Ku pasrah..ku redha dengan takdir Illahi..bukan sahabatku yang harus ku persalahkan..tapi ku anggap semua ini ujian dari Ilahi yang pasti ada hikmah yang tersembunyi bagi hamba-hambanya yang bersabar…Ku hanya berdoa pada Allah agar memberikan kejayaanku padanya..biarlah ku tidak berjaya…tapi ku ingin melihat dirinya berjaya..hanya itu yg akan membuat diri ini gembira..Alhamdulillah kini sahabatku telah pulih dan kejayaan sentiasa mengiringinya…Segala pujian bagi Allah kerana telah memakbulkan doa hamba-hambanya....


Jauh ku melamun…tanpa disedari..air mataku membasahi pipiku…”Wae maafkan yati krn xdpt nk capai impian wae..yati dh cuba wae..tp yati ttp x berjaya..yati kalah dgn ujian Allah..maafkn yati Wae..”

Ku mengesat titisan airmataku. Biarlah segalanya menjadi rahsia pd diriku..ku tidak pernah menceritak apa yg berlaku pd kedua org tuaku..cukuplah ia menjadi kenangan dlm diari hidupku..namun ku ttp berazam utk menggapai kejayaan & memenuhi impian ayah bonda di peringkat masters & PhD insyaAllah

"A friend in need is a friend indeed" -Wan-

FYP..The Legend...

Since yesterday, Yus and I was struggling to finish off the last bit of FYP documentation which was FYP final report. When it came to appendices part, we were stuck. No idea of what to put. I looked up on the bookshelf and saw the black sugar paper which was used for FYP show case. "yus, apa kata kita letak gambar2 tu dlm abstract?" "haa?? betul ke wan?" 'Betullah yus, apa salahnya.." Then there were we cutting and pasting the pictures. "Wan, dh lama yus tinggalkn gum sejak masuk U ni." "hehe, biasalah yus, sblm kluar U, kt main dgn gum n gunting balik, teringat masa kecik2 dulu kan..". While cutting the pictures, my memory remembered back the 'legend' day (FYP showcase). It was just one week ago, on Thursday, all 14 of us did our very best to present our projects to everyone who came to see. It was a great day, a day where everyone witnessed the first batch of CS presenting their final year projects. It was the day which made everyone proud with what they had achieved in their project. It was also the day which shall become the legend of KICT...Congratulations to all 7 groups of CS FYP

Saturday, March 17, 2007

My dad is back

Yesterday afternoon my dad arrived from Jeddah. My mum fetched him at the airport with my little brother. I couldn't wait to see him. Unfortunately, I had so many reports to be submitted before 5pm. I kept my passion and tried my best to finish off all that I can. In the mean time, my sister Hidayah kept on asking me when was I going to go back. My heart wispered "if it wasn't because of all these reports, I would have gone to fetch my father at KLIA." Time was running so fast. I couldn't bear any longer to wait. I really missed my father so much. I couldn't wait to hug him. Only at 5pm I finished all of my work. I rushed to bind and submitted the report. Alhamdulillah all was done. I went straight away to pray and at 6.15pm, me and Hidayah rushed off back home. Upon arriving, I saw so many cars filling all the area in front of my house. All of my cousins came to see my father. My father hugged me so tight. I could feel the love of a father to her daughter. Indeed with a simple hug, I felt so happy. All of my stress on my projects was released. The love from a father managed to fill my heart. " O Allah, thank you for all of your love you gave to my family."

"The essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for. " - Wan-

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

When the time comes...

I just finished my IT security class. We had to evaluate every team members. Alhamdulillah everything is over for ITsec except to compile the report. Now i'm here in the FYP lab, trying to finish off my work. All of a sudden, i felt so sad. Every hour makes it nearer to the day where everyone will choose their own path and chase their own dreams.. I'm already missing everyone. Four years in UIA really did give me so much memorable memories. Well to all of my friends especially those are struggling to finish off their FYP, let us all do our very best for this last moment. Let us all make ourselves and our lecturers proud of us as the first batch of FYP and also CS students. I really pray that we as the first batch will achieve the best in our FYP. This is the only thing left for us to prove our capabilities.. GOOD LUCK my dear friends.. I pray for all of your success in completing this task. Let's do our best!!

"man jadda wa jad!!" -Wan-

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Keeping the passion

Here I am alone in FYP lab struggling to finish all of my assignments. I only have one more week to go to complete my FYP and not to mention other projects which are due this week. How am I going to cope with all these?? The only thing which has been pushing me this far is the passion and determination inside me. Without them, I would have give up long ago. Well, I guess this is what you call student's life. No other thing than study all the time. One day, i'm sure I'll miss the good days being a student. For me, life as a student is the best part of one's life.. so let's enjoy it while we still can : )

"Make Du'a, Do Your Best, and leave the rest To Allah" -Wan-

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Being a consultant or to be consulted??

Alhamdulillah finally our job as consultant reached the end. Boy oh boy..being a consultant in IT security field is really challenging. What more when everything is quite new for us. But I suppose the experience was good. Congratulations to all!! We all tried our best..maybe one day we will pose the position of an IT security consultant..huhu..Good Luck everyone in preparing the proposal report.

"Allahumma 'aj'alna min annajihin..amin" -Wan-

Friday, March 9, 2007

Mum i miss u so much

Today well I mean yesterday which passed by just a few hours ago was a tiring day. Early in the morning I rushed back home to see my mum after quite a long time I didn’t had the opportunity to go back home due to my commitment as a student. Since last week every second I missed my mum..i didn’t know why but I felt the strong feeling of my mum calling me( kind of ‘aura’ between a mother and her daughter). So I told myself whatever it takes I’m gonna go back just to see my mum. Upon arriving at home, I gave salam..it took some time before my mum opened the door.. “Sape tu..??” “Ni yati ma..” "Oh ingatkn penjual kain mana pulak tadi..” I laughed at her assumption..indeed it was quite a long time since my mum heard my voice which caused her to think a stranger was at the door..Thank you Allah for giving me the time to see my beloved mum..may your blessings be upon my mum forever..

"Ma..redhalah segala pekerjaan anakmu ini..doakanlah kejayaan anakmu ini.." -Wan-

Blogger...oh blogger..










How did I get involve in this blogger stuff?? I’m now staying up late at night in FYP lab struggling to finish off everything I can especially ITsec project. Until I came to the limit,,I can’t stand it anymore..pushing myself like a robot..i need some rest..this is where the idea of writing a blogger came into my mind…a place for me to release all my stress..a place for me to relax my mind..trying to give some space for myself to have some “rest”....

"Whoever follows patience...success will follow him" -Wan-